happiness is my default position

I bought ( this ) photo of Tom's that he took of Panic! at the Disco (way back when), and it turned up today looking gorgeous and Ryan and Brendon are looking at each other and Spencer's looking at Jon and it really couldn't be any better, but then ( this ) was inside it and omg I am so freaking excited. TOM!!!!

Title: Footnote in a Fairy Tale
Author: jacqui_hw
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
Word Count: 13,045
Warnings: Sex, Language
Summary: Post-split, set in the near future.

Ryan stood at the bar and sipped his drink, watching the crowd, waiting until he found whatever it was he'd been needing for the last few days. Ever since they'd arrived in London there'd been a feeling in the pit of his stomach, that something had to happen. He needed change, he needed excitement.

AN: A giant thank you to ditchwitchbitch for the awesome beta work, help and support she has given me in writing this.

( Footnote in a Fairy Tale )

I got this awesome Panic! card for my birthday from doublefourtime. ( Pictures )

♥

( There is nothing I don't like about this photo )

Come talk to me about how pretty it is.

Today is already a bad day, so I'm going to try and post something positive. I'm going away for the weekend and won't be back until Sunday. I shall be having fun with my parents and feelallhigh and sadly there'll be no internet for me until then.

It's a good thing this happened when I could see it.

A Weekend at Pete Rose's (Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet) from Shane Valdés on Vimeo.

BOYS! ♥_♥


I am going to try to write a lot this weekend though and I thought I'd share a few snippets from my current WIPs before I left.

( Footnote in a Fairy Tale: Brendon/Ryan - this one is going to be finished next because I'm in love with it. Totally different to the way I usually write. )


( Part of the My Name Is Worse series - In Which Bronx Saves The Day )


And of course my harlequin_bands fic that I haven't quite started, but have at least plotted out.

Have a good weekend!

I have been trying to keep myself positive about the Panic(!) split and not take sides and not be hurt and look at all the good stuff and think about the fic. Until tonight, I think I've been doing a good job. 90% of the time since it happened, I have been in a good place with it.

And then I read the interview Brendon gave and, you know what? I don't think it's a nice interview. It made sad. It made me sad in ways Ryan and Spencer's didn't. It made me lose that happy I'd clung on to.

I really don't want to be all emo about it. Everyone else seems all happy and excited and I just can't see it. I hate feeling like this.

Title: New Perspective: Jon
Author: jacqui_hw
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Spencer/Jon, Ryan/Brendon
Word Count: 2,700
Warnings: Language, pure unadulterated fluff
Summary: Post-split. After the Blink tour, Spencer, Brendon, Ryan and Jon decide to take a trip together to reconnect.
AN: This fic has morphed from a one-shot to an four-part tale. Brendon's pov coming soon. I'm still making no apologies for the fluffiness of this fic.

( New Perspective: Jon )

Love the name. Love the song. \o/

Yay for Ryan and Jon and Brendon and Spencer today.

Edit: Link - http://www.myspace.com/theyoungveins

And... uh, now I need to write some band crossover fic ;)

Edit 2: http://www.theyoungveins.com/

Brendon Urie. Forgive me for forgetting that I love your stupid face too.

( Happy picspam! )

Title: New Perspective: Spencer
Author: jacqui_hw
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Spencer/Jon, Ryan/Brendon
Word Count: 2,400
Warnings: Language, pure unadulterated fluff
Summary: Post-split. After the Blink tour, Spencer, Brendon, Ryan and Jon decide to take a trip together to reconnect.
AN: I make no apologies for the fluffiness of this fic. It's what I needed. I think it's what we all need right now.

( New Perspective: Spencer )